bathroom thoughts

you ever get the feeling that your whole world crumbles because you didn’t get that one text from that special someone? that’s me everyday for the past week(s). you dont think that it would affect you this much but as soon as she doesn’t reply to you, you feel it, in your heart, in your guts, in your soul, that sinking feeling.

i don’t know what to do anymore because i don’t think i can survive without the feelings she gives me. but it’s gotten to the point where i feel like i have a parasite in my brain forcing me to talk badly about myself and often look down at the accomplishments i’ve never achieved.

should i just give up on this? go away? run? i feel empty no matter what, it’s something that i should be addressing but i’m afraid, i dread the fact that she’s slowly slipping away from my caress and i think she knows it as well as i. please don’t go, i beg.